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I need a hot shower.

I heard some weird noises as I was walking back, like thunder and metal scraping against metal. Has anyone else heard anything? I'm not in the mood for any cryptic answers, so if you aren't going to say something clearly, don't say anything.

I'm really getting sick of being kept in the dark.


Filtered to Ganta

I found Nagi.

Private to Smoker

I understand a man named Nagi is with you. I was wondering if I could come talk to him.

Eve, thanks for coming on the walk with me. Sorry it was kind of awkward.

Halloween is coming soon. This hardly seems like the kind of place to celebrate it, but it doesn't seem like very much else is going on. Does anyone want to cook something or dress up or something? I've been trying to get a hold of Kairi to come up with ideas, but she hasn't been responding. Some people seem to enjoy parties enough here, so I thought I'd put the suggestion out there. Uh, does anyone else actually know what Halloween is?

To people who were here... when I got hurt. I don't remember much of what happened but one thing has been bothering me. Does anyone know what happened to Nagi?

An entire year.

If I were back home, she'd probably drag me out to pick acorns or go look at leaves or something. Childish. I wonder if they went on a school trip this year. Probably to Kyoto or some place typical like that. Ugh, I bet it was crowded with tourists too.

I wonder if they even remem

I wish I could have taken pictu

It's too cold here.

Does anyone have any information on what's going on at the docks? I'm kind of curious but trying to find out for myself when I haven't even been allowed outside the past few weeks doesn't seem like a good idea.

I recognize a couple of voices from before. If... there's any new people, uh, my name's Ritsuka. Nice to meet you I guess...

I wonder if Dai will let me go on a walk.

[ Ritsuka's voice cuts in faintly at first, as though he's placed far away from the microphone. ]

... -ly have it back?

[ The transmission is muted for a long moment by the rustling of fabric, the rhythmic sound of feet on hardwood, when all the miscellaneous background noises suddenly cut out, replaced by Ritsuka's voice, a little quiet and uncomfortable as he speaks. ]

Can anyone hear me?

[ Unsure of what else to say, Ritsuka lets the transmission idle, the soft sound of his labored breathing the only noise until he abruptly shuts it off. ]

I'm glad I didn't spend much time at the casino; it sounds like it didn't end up well for anyone. Things are stagnant again. It's hard to focus on what I need to get done when it feels like I'm not progressing at all. I don't want to resign myself to this life, but every day it feels more and more like maybe this way is better for everyone.

I didn't think it would come to this, but it's not like a weasel is going to be much help in this place. Is there anyone who'd be willing to teach me how to defend myself? I'm tired of feeling useless.

On a different note, does anyone know how to get in contact with Gaea? I don't like waiting.

( Filtered to Seimei//unhackable )

I was a little weirded out when this turned up all of a sudden, but I guess she's not as unmanageable as some of the others. I'm a little doubtful about her "attack" powers though. And since I'll just have to learn how to defend myself.

I'm glad the planes are back to normal, but it begs the question of how. Has anyone been able to figure anything out? I have my own guesses, but that's really all they are right now.

( Filtered to Gaea//unhackable )

( Private//hackable )

What was...

Even after meeting with Gaea (which almost got us killed), I still feel like we're not much closer to figuring any of this out. How we can reverse the planes again, how I can get back the memories that were stolen from me, what our purpose is in Nuadoria. No one has any answers, just riddles and tasks and more questions.

It's giving me a headache. I just--

I wish I knew what to do.

Ryuzaki, I understand these aren't the best conditions, but do you have enough food at least?

( Filtered to Erielle//unhackable )

( Private//unhackable )

... This again. Is this Gaea's doing? She hasn't come forward. And I still have to ask her about getting my memories back. I have to try. I can't just sit by and do nothing.

I hope Caim and the others are okay. That creature

Soubi, we're going out. People are getting hurt, and we don't know why, and we can't just sit around and wait for the monsters to attack us. We'll think of something. We have to.

Is there a place where we can gather together and work on fixing this?

I appreciate everyone coming to the picnic. I wish there was a way to get my photos developed here. The memories never feel real unless I can physically hold them.

I hope... is that boy okay now?

It's so strange, living in such a dangerous place without much in the way of powers. If this were an RPG, I would have been able to level up, get armor, abilities, whatever, but I just feel... useless like this. I wish I understood more about being a Sacrifice.

Caim, if you're free, could we have our talk soon?

( Private )

Even though the planes are back to normal now, I still don't feel like we know any more than we did before. I still haven't found a way-

I can't dwell on it. I just have to make new ones. And make sure these won't vanish.

I know... a while ago, some people were talking about having a picnic. The city doesn't look very nice right now, but maybe it wouldn't be so bad to try? At least before it goes crazy again.

I wonder if she's doing okay.



I'm going to go with the others to access Seraphim. I need to find answers; maybe I can find them there.




I have to be strong.

What is that thing doing in the middle of the city?

... Is it like what Nagi and the others were fighting in Niflheim? I hope this doesn't have anything to do with the Inquisitor.

There's something wrong with the air, too. Like there's dust floating around, only worse. I could hardly breathe coming home. I hope it doesn't stay like this for long. I don't want to be trapped inside all the time.

Soubi and I are both going to the upcoming ball. I think... it'll be good. There are some other people I know going, so at least I'll have people to talk to. I still don't like crowds, though.

Um. Does anyone have any suggestions as to what I should wear? I don't want to wear a suit, but Caim said to dress nicely. Why can't I just wear normal clothes? It's a pain to figure all this out.

I haven't touched this thing for two weeks, and when I do, everything's been changed. I didn't want to have to relearn how to use this; so far it's way more trouble than it's worth.

I've never seen so much snow before. The city looks really different covered in it.




I don't know what to write. I'm just tired.

[voice]

[Ritsuka's tone is weary, confused - he's been stretched to his mental and emotional limits and about to crash]

Even if I find something worth fighting for, it won't ever be the same. I won't ever be him unless I disappear. Is that why I'm here? Because I can't be her Ritsuka?

I thought someone told me... I-

I can't remember.

[The words burst forth in a panicked gasp, and Ritsuka sounds on the verge of tears]

Soubi! Where's my camera? I have to find it!

I... Seimei?



Is it my fault? Today-

I can't sit around and do nothing anymore. I can't let others risk their lives to save mine. Soubi, I understand if you don't want to come. There are plenty of people here who still need help with bandages. But... if you want to.

Where is that boy? Kairi's friend? If you get this, let's go together.

Soubi and I managed to escape from the city before the meteor hit. That was what that... thing was, right? It looked wrong. I've seen hardly anyone since we left. I wish I could believe everyone's okay.



Seimei, are you-


These pews are really uncomfortable.